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Hello hellloooo.... it has been a while since i put words on anything, aside from the requirements that come with work. You know - emails, memos, boards papers etc and stuffs. It has been so long that it almost feels like whatever inside me is already dead. It has been so quiet I am not sure if i have any voice inside me anymore. It seems like i have just chosen to go through the motions with no fuss - to just follow the pace of others, and do what people expect of me - that my inner voice, my conscience has just finally shut down.

Today i decided to open this page and make an attempt to write. Not to anyone in particular. But to myself.  Hi there selfie... you there? Come out now will you.. I want to feel alive again, to not be afraid anymore. To just be bold and do what I wanted to do. To feel alive and real. To feel...

It is a start... let’s call this self therapy and see where this takes us. What’s happened of late, what with the lockdown, the stresses of work, the toxicity of the social medias, the anxiety of work expectations... there are just too many to say of - it’s made me to withdraw even more into my shell. There are occasions, in those private moments, like just those few minutes before i go to bed, do i dare to dream of doing the things i want to do. Solo cycling around the country, and blogging about it... solo running around the neighbourhood. Solo traveling to a familiar place like London, or even better the Holy Lands... to give my chance to soul search and find myself... i really want to do that. Maybe if i spend enough time to bring the inner self of me out, i will get closer to doing these things i want to do... i truly hope so...

We’ll see...

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